A Realization on Anxiety

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December 15, 2014

Although not officially diagnosed (or treated) I know I suffer from some pretty above average, ridiculous anxiety. I'm very OCD about things in a not "cute white girl" kind of way. Like the silverware in my drawer has to be arranged just so and taken out in FIFO otherwise I get very upset. Or tags on blankets have to be in the bottom right corner or else I get very uncomfortable. So two weekends ago when we were making ...

2014 // Music

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December 04, 2014

I've been paying for Spotify premium for probably over a year now. The main reason was to get rid of ads. Then it was to use the phone app. Then it was to be able to have my music library offline. Now I'm hooked. They have me. I contemplated saving $120 a year to spend on something else as a nice treat but when I started to think about even trying to get my old iTunes library up to date with the new music I've acquired ...

Seasonal Depression

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December 02, 2014

It's 6:09 PM while I type this. I'm in an old t-shirt. In bed. In front of the TV I moved into my bedroom a few weeks ago. (Which I'm 100% against and have never put in my bedroom before in the years that I've lived here). Internet, seasonal depression is real. This is what it looks like. For some reason my mind just can't adjust to it being 5:30 and dark. I just want to rush home, take a shower, eat, and go to ...

What To Do…

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November 24, 2014

I'm in more than a rut. I'm burned out. I'm exhausted. I'm done. I woke up at 2 this morning and subsequently drifted off and woke up again to check the time at least 4 times until 6:30. I'm so anxious these days. I want to run away, take a vacation, reset myself. But of course, with limited time, money, and the holiday season starting this week, I'm just going to have to power through. These are all first world ...